Damaged Goods - Visitor's Story

by Cynthia Marquez
(Fort Worth, TX, USA)

Has your life automatically changed drastically and you have yet to figure out a way to put the pieces back together? Well, mine has tremendously!

I had been in a turbulent relationship with the man I thought had my soul until he shattered my heart into millions of pieces. He was everything in a man that I was not looking for but was accustomed to and comfortable with. And unfortunately when you are at that stage in your life that is all you know and that is all you want to live for. But I am here to tell you that there is a way out if you really want to make that step!

I had been mentally, emotionally and physically abused by this man. I had been called stupid, dumb, ignorant, lazy, selfish, kid, rude, and any other name you can think of in the book of shame.

In the beginning as in any other relationship in its first stage, everything was picture perfect. Not in a million years did I think he would take me. What I mean by taking me is taking my personality and leaving me with the forlornness of myself and trying to figure out how to get that back. How do I repair myself into the person that I was before I met him and the person that I want to be after being with him? Slowly and with time is what everyone was telling me! That was not true for me… Yes it did happen slowly and yes time was passing me by.

But with the help of God and giving him the power to repair what one of his children had broken is what helped me get over the pain, sorrow, loneliness, and shame! I talked to God every night and day. Every chance I had he was there with me. We laughed and we cried together. He made me open my eyes, give me the confidence I needed and made me realize not to repair what has been damaged but learn from what has happened. For he will not take you through any rough patches that he knows you cannot overcome!

I have not yet figured out my life and probably will not any time soon, I have not yet figured out which direction to take in my life or which path to follow. But I do know that if I have been given the opportunity to take different paths then I will research and figure out which ones are the correct ones to be taking.

Remember this, not all paths are meant to be taken but that is the test in which you should know deep down inside your inner body. No one will ever have the power to control me again or put me down because I am God's child and no one has that power but him! No man or woman should ever take who you are. I wanted to share this with any man or woman that has been damaged in a relationship to give you hope and confidence that everything will be fine with the grace of God…

I am truly a witness…

Cynthia Marquez