Field of Dreams - Visitor's Poem

by Sabah Ismail
(Manchester, UK)

When I walk through those fields, the gold sparkling all around me, the sun shining down on me... and I walk towards your smiling face and your open arms; I know I will finally be complete.

Living this life without you is going to be the hardest thing I will ever have to do, I know that. Knowing you are alive, out there somewhere, but lying in someone else’s arms is enough to kill me.

But still I live; my smile hiding my pain, and my invisible tears waiting to make tracks down to the river of my everlasting anguish.

You tell me I will be yours in the next life, and every life after that. But the problem is, I want you right now. I want you now, where I know having you is certain. I don’t want to hold on to a hope that may never come true, for what if there is no next life, and no life after that. And so I’ll be forever waiting... my heart forever longing for the touch of your grace.

But I throw those thoughts aside, and I make myself believe you WILL be mine. When I walk through those fields, and I see you there smiling... and I fall into your arms, I know I will finally be complete.

Living this life without you, is like having a complete puzzle without the centre piece, like having a heart with no beat, like having a body with no soul, like having a face but no name... Incomplete.

Baby, you are missed; oh you are missed so very much. Every step, every move, every word, without you means nothing. But I’m living, like you want me to, I’m not giving up because you don’t want me to, and it’s all for you and for that hope that you will be mine again.

So on that day, when I walk through those fields, the sun shining down on me, and the gold sparkling all around me... And when I walk into your open arms, complete again, I promise baby, I will NEVER EVER LET YOU GO. I cannot live another life without you.

07.11.09
05:24am