Just for You My Husband - Visitor's Story

by Sarah Supriya
(India)

Am I in love with my husband? Am I still crazy about my hubby? I’ve asked myself this question a lot of times and then I realized that if I had to do it again, I’ll still marry him. And this thought was very endearing and heartwarming for me. I was totally in love with the man I married on my wedding day. When I look at my husband today, I see him and remember how I used to be in love with this man, and know that I still have a choice to fall in love with him again.

It was very easy to fall into the trap of getting swept up by other things like I, raising my kid and he, managing his careers. And I don’t remember when the last time was when we really spent time together as a couple, After 8 years of marriage, it's hard to reconnect and "really be with" just my husband.

It’s just the feeling that I’m married to a person I love so much which leads me not into any kind of temptations. Though we are two different ends by nature we have spent so many years of our marriage in harmony and peace, I guess it’s just that special space we have for each other in our lives.

I’m a person with full of expressions and he is man with least words, yet his eyes tell me that he cares for me, but sometimes I feel it's just not enough. Everyday I wake up with a hope that this would be the day when he would be a little romantic and a little sensitive to hold me in his arms and tell me how much he loves me and cares for me. But when it turns out to be just like another day it hurts, yet I don’t leave any hopes nor do I ever forget to tell him how much I love him. I guess it's that overwhelming passion that I have for him that despite of his insensitive nature I still live with him.

Every meal I make for him is with all my love and every morsel I feed him is with utmost dedication for him and I just love doing it for him. I just feed him like he’s my god and every meal is a burnt offering. No matter what, I’ll wait for him to change for me, because at the end of my life, I know I will never regret not having passed one more test in my life not winning the heart of my relatives or not closing one more deal. But I will regret for time not spent with him.

I feel happy to know that my husband regards me as a woman and a person and has accepted me the way I am but yet my expectation for his love has never lessened and I really take pride in the relationship I have with my husband. And I’ll never give up... I know one day he would understand my feelings for him and will reciprocate it too.