My Personal Healing - Visitor's Story

by Marijke Verkerk
(Ede, Netherlands, Europe)

My personal healing will ever be the most convincing evidence of our subconscious powers. Nearly eight years ago I solved a near death experience by using the healing power of my subconscious mind which created me, and still maintains and governs all my vital functions. And there is more!

At the age of 43 I became a mother, this alone is not very unusual as many woman these day’s consciously choose to have children at a later stage in life. What made it special in my case was that a year before my child’s was born, I was single. My son’s father and I had decided to break up. We loved each other truly from the heart, but our age difference, he is 15 years younger than I am, and the differences in culture, religion and our upbringing seemed too much, and so our convictions won the battle! I felt devastated and couldn’t find any reason to continue in life. I shared my frustration with God in my prayers and begged Him for help.

During these prayers I developed the habit of intuitive writing, this is writing without consciously thinking or in other words; I automatically wrote down the words that came up. In these letters I was told that my lover and I would reunite and I would get pregnant with our son. 42 days later I received a phone call from my man who asked me to come ‘home’ and make a child with him. I went and became pregnant. Isn’t God’s power amazing?

In 2002, I was diagnosed with a dangerous virus. This virus called C.M.V attacked my body in many ways. It infected my brain, paralyzed my arm’s and infected my liver and kidney. My doctor told me I had only 5 percent chance to survive this ordeal. No medicine existed to cure this virus and I was send home.

After this experience and despite all worries around me, I realized that the ‘thought’ of dying had never entered my mind. I could see myself in the 'future' being healthy and happy, and deep down I ‘knew’ this to be true! During the time of my recovery, which took me around two years, I went to see a doctor of homeopathy who subscribed me all kinds of ‘natural’ drops to support and clean my liver and kidney. Homeopathy is the art and science of healing by safe, gentle, and natural methods; the Homeopathic remedies are derived from raw, natural resources generally from the vegetable and animal kingdoms as well as from minerals. Although some remedies are used in less diluted form, most remedies in general use are highly diluted yet potentized; they are believed to have some, yet unidentified, physical energy that helps to stimulate the body’s own healing power. I realized that my illness came from the way I was thinking about myself and life, and that I needed to change my outlook on things.

From this time on my research started, I wanted to know the opinion from scientists and doctors about ‘self healing’ and God. About prayer and about the effect thoughts have on one’s life. I began reading philosophical /spiritual and scientific books and articles.

After a year of sleep, around May in 2003 I felt strong enough to participate in a three year education in 'Rebalancing' where I was taught that all daily life impressions are stored in the physical body, whether good or bad. As in my case the ‘bad’ impressions literally “banged� on my door. The thought behind Rebalancing is that all wisdom available lies in one’s body, and the body is one’s home. In order to be able to ‘hear’ this wisdom one needs a clean body and mind. It was obvious for me that the contact between my body and my mind needed to be restored, in order to find the root that caused my physical pain and disease. I learned to meditate which helped quieting my mind and with massage, yoga and breathing exercises I slowly accepted and entered my home (body).

Another very important thing I learned was to deal with and let go of my emotions. Due to my illness I found my way back to the voice in my heart, I call ‘God’. I integrated praying in my daily routine which reminded me of the daily conversations I used to have with ‘Him’ as a child. But as I grew older I simply ‘forgot’ about my dearest friend and my fears grew.

I began analyzing my thoughts and dreams to collect ‘evidence’, and wrote all my findings down. I noticed how everything I asked for he gave, and from this I learned to be very specific in what to ask. Life’s experiences showed me how both healthy and negative thoughts turn into reality, especially when they are backed up by a strong feeling or desire.

While analyzing my thoughts and transforming the negative thoughts into positive thoughts, I practice on controlling my emotions which help me quite down the noise that comes to mind. I try to be mindful and to fully enjoy and stay in the ‘now’. At times when I succeed to keep my body and mind in the moment, I notice how easy and peaceful life really is, and how my body responds by being very relaxed. This made me realize the influence my thoughts have towards my body and feelings, ones my thoughts drift into the past or future and starts yapping about things I need to do in the following week, I immediately notice a tightness in my body...

Through praying I restore the connection between my heart and my head. The law of life is the law of belief, and belief could be summed up briefly as a thought in your mind. My thoughts, feelings, and believes, make up the condition of my mind, body, and circumstances. Analyzing my thoughts helps me understand what I’m doing and why I am doing things.

Essentially, answered prayer is the realization of your heart’s desire. I pray and express my desires and gratefulness many times a day before I continue with my daily occupations.

I especially pray before falling asleep and when I wake up. At these times the rhythm of the brain runs slower which leaves my mind quiet and sleepy. This ‘dreamy’ state is called the ‘Theta’ brain wave. The subconscious is proven by neurologists receptive for new thoughts and information during the time of the Theta wave. I also want to explain to you the important role the subconscious mind has in healing and improving the quality of your life.

My talent was revealed in a Dream

As a child in the age of ten I loved to draw, but due to many unfriendly remarks of my teacher I came to believe that I wasn’t good enough, and I gave up. Thirty years later I received a dream, in my dream I saw myself effortlessly making beautiful drawings. While excited and overwhelmed discovering this gift I didn’t understand how this suddenly could happen. Then (still in my dream) I heard a voice say; “You must continue you have a talent in drawing�.

I immediately woke up and wrote everything down. (In that time I kept a booklet and a pen next to my pillow). Somehow this dream was different, and what if its message is true? Determent and excited to find out I bought myself color pencils and paper. But I had no idea where or how to begin and before I knew all kinds of doubt came to mind. I realized I needed to first become silent and sat down to meditate.

I thanked God for showing me the dream with my new talent, and slowly my mind and body relaxed. By the time I finished my drawing my husband and his brother arrived home. They were surprised to see me drawing and both took a look at what I was doing. My brother in law turned to my husband with a big smile and said; “He man, what the hell are you feeding her�!

Today I have an online Art Gallery where if you like, you can see my work. http://www.blikopkunst.nl/marijkeverkerk

The subconscious mind functions as the messenger that conveys all our thoughts to the creative Level of mind whom I call God. When we become relaxed, a clear channel of communication opens between the conscious, the subconscious and God. When we are in a deep state of relaxation, communication between these minds is at its clearest and most powerful level. The communication with the Creator works both ways. Not only do we speak with Him, He also communicates with us.

An example of communication coming from God through the subconscious and into the conscious mind is called intuition. We all have intuitions and "gut feelings" that seem to magically pop into our minds. Intuitional thoughts and imaginative thoughts come from God guiding us the way.

One thing led to another and intuitively during my research on the internet I entered a site with teachings in Metaphysical science. I had never ever heard of Metaphysics but I knew this was something I needed to investigate. Reading the site’s introduction gave me goosebumps that covered my entire body. I felt like a happy child in a candy store. There were some many interesting topics to choose from! My decision to enter the classes was quickly made.

With this education I unexpectedly found what deep down I was looking for. I never knew what to do with my life although there were many things I liked doing but obviously not enough, and sad enough but true, I ‘saw’ myself as a person that didn’t have the brains to study. I recently passed my Master’s degree and I will continue for my Doctorate degree!

About the Author:

Marijke Verkerk, Europe /Netherlands, Mother & Wife, Master of Metaphysical science Msc, Artist, Certified Rebalancer, National speaker in the Netherlands Europe.

http://www.blikopkunst.nl/marijkeverkerk http://www.artbymarijkeverkerk.imagekind.com

Written by Marijke Verkerk April 2010